Embracing the Cross
Her thoughts: I hate conflict for my own selfish reasons-I want everyone "to like me"...it's truly a self-love, so I think God was telling me-I want your arms outstretched-I want you in uncomfortable waters in your defense and love of me...so there it is-see what I'm getting at?-be not afraid to stretch out your arms.
My thoughts: I was struck by the image she brought to me, that in opening ourselves from silent to vulnerable we do get wounded and "crucified" in a way. I need mortification and that's how God sends it.
Two spectrums - Is it as generic as introvert/extrovert?
I come back to a conversation from my past with a friend from a former parish who felt that we should pray more about adoration and that it might be greedy and overstepping to work/take action for more adoration hours than we had. In that I was reminded that yes, I must trust God more, I must pray more but I also thought... God DOES work through people to get His work done!
He needs hands, He needs voices. Sometimes we must act and be God's instrument. Sometimes, we must question our impulsiveness and pride....
It's a hard balance to know when to shut up. So many examples of quiet, holy people. Yet, many examples exist of those who also open themselves to speak the hard, uncomfortable words... martyrs in heaven...living witnesses, Father Corapi -Fr. Eutenueur - Archbishop Burke. They aren't concerned with how others will judge them, not worried if others will attack them.
God gives us each different talents and different crosses. I must embrace my cross, THIS I do know.
Father Eutenueur said, "It is He whom you serve. It is He in Whose place you stand. To be bland and uncontroversial is a very poor way to imitate Christ. They don't put you on the cross for mediocrity."